Posted in Faith, Focus, Me, Pandemic

God Focused

For the last few months during this Pandemic, I have been focusing a lot more on God and what he wants of me. During this trying time, I am extremely thankful for my mobile home even though it’s not where I want to remain much longer.

I have also been seriously studying the book ‘Boundaries’

with my Bible Study group. I am learning so much about myself and how to understand and react to others. Our group leader even sent me the Workbook that goes with it!

I haven’t been called to any dating sites lately. It probably isn’t the best time to be meeting people anyway, what with having to stay home and my weak immune system. Plus, I am praying that God leads me to a Free, Christian one if that’s where/how I am supposed to meet someone.

Anyway, December has arrived and it is the month of celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ. I wish you all a very blessed December.

Posted in Blog, Family, Life, Me

Fishing For Info

Yesterday I talked to FS. She was fishing to see if I am still blogging. I mentioned “I don’t have the blog anymore”. meaning my old one and she goes, “So, you don’t blog at all?” I just repeated myself and changed the subject. It’s none of her business.

Only two people know I have this, but, don’t have access.

My last blog caused an extreme rift between my sister and I because she decided to spy. I refuse to let that happen again. I don’t know if it’s because I am the youngest but it’s like my family doesn’t want me to have my own thoughts and opinions. It’s stupid that I have to hide things for my own privacy. But, it’s my life

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Paranoia

If you get bit by a dog, you might have fear around dogs for a long time. When you break up with someone, it’s hard to trust again. When your blog has been invaded especially by relatives, it’s really hard to start over. This is why the gmail address, blog title and even name I use is completely different. I am terrified of dejavue.

My sister and I are finally communicating again. My family is crazy. At least my sisters. They don’t believe I should have my own thoughts and opinions. They especially don’t agree with me sharing my views and experiences with strangers. Plus, it seems like we have small bouts of peacefulness between us but, you are always waiting for the pin to drop; one of my sisters getting angry at another over something and usually I am the Target.

I have always been the Black Sheep pretty much. My one sister was jealous and claims I got all the attention. I was born sickly and spent the first two years of my life in the hospital. I can see her side until her teen years. I have made some questionable relationship decisions in the past that also didn’t sit right with my family.

But, we are all adults now and need to act like it. Just stay away from what bothers you, even if it is a relative. My brother is the smart one and has always stayed out of the drama. .except when my mother died. She gave him Financial Power Of Attorney and me Medical Power Of Attorney. That’s a whole nother story in itself.