I guess when you get older, Birthdays don’t mean much to others, which is a bit sad.
I talked to Cin twice today and even suggested taking Uber or Lyft to meet her and her children at the hotel. She is going to be having surgery on Friday and is staying in the hotel with them until then. Not only did she Never wish me a Happy Birthday but was to busy to call back never mind getting together.
I did hear from my Bible Study girls and one of them even gave me $10.00.
I also heard from my Bro and Sis #1. Sis #2 and I are not speaking so I guess that includes Birthday texts. Plus, FS and one other friend.
Tomorrow I am going to Brunch with FS. It’s weird though, because usually when someone takes you out for your Birthday, they ask where you want to go NOT assume you want a Sub Sandwich just because it’s your favorite place, but whatever. I am still grateful for the meal.
Thursday, H from Bible Study is going to take me on some errands and Friday Lin (my Handyman) is coming over to install a bench which should help with storage.
Today was quiet. I took a nice shower and washed my hair in the bathroom by the office, fed Cin’s cats (which I will be doing for a few days), organized my closet a bit and emptied a box.
Also, ordered a Space Heater (since my wall one isn’t working) and some Leggings.
I am 57 today and as one friend pointed out, Birthdays are for celebrating the time we’ve lived so far, not the time we are going to.
I told my Sis (the one I still talk to) and Bro about my move. My Sis had a point. I have to be happy!
I am a bit nervous because I am not sure if this will make me happy. But, I will definitely be happy to be back on my own with my Fur-Children. Plus, I am getting excited at the things I can do in the future. Like, I can get a Shed and turn it into an office. Plus, I can start saving again for a car! I really want a Smart Car, again..or a Volkswagen.. something small.
I have made bad decisions in the past, but I am proud of my decisions now. I don’t have debt and I am doing everything on my own.
Sometimes I get worried about family and others opinions, but I live my life for Me, not them. That’s something I have to remember!
I’m Grateful to have found this RV, I have purchased. God is answering my prayers.
My Suzy is going to her Aunt Cin’s today. I know it’s early but I don’t want to many major changes to fast for the cats sake, plus I need to use the big box she lays in. Also, Cin lives 30-45 minutes away so it gets a little difficult driving back and forth constantly, she needs a few days break. She will be with Suzy and her cats getting them acclimated.
I must add, I am a bit nervous about staying at Cin’s and hope it doesn’t last long. She lives in a small, Fifth Wheel Trailer and I will be sleeping on the table bed. Most of my stuff with be on the bed, also. She keeps the television on all day for background noise, and if I have a Migraine, there is nowhere to go! I did order some Earmuffs but they aren’t noise cancelling since I will need to be able to sleep in them.
I really wish and pray something opens soon, whether it’s a small Trailer like Cin’s or a Studio Apartment where I can be alone. I also don’t want to keep Tara and Monkey in the Pet Hotel to long, despite how nice it is. It costs as much per week as Siegel Suites!
I am thinking of getting a small, Pumpkin at the store today and making Pumpkin Seeds before going to Cin’s. She doesn’t like them so they would be all for me!
It’s bad enough when you have to let go of “friends.” but, it’s really sad when your family members become Toxic.
I used to get really stressed when a family member was upset with me. I always wanted to feel loved and accepted. When my parents died, I pretty much figured we would all go our separate ways. However, Sis #2 has stuck by, for a while. ( I will call them Sis #1 and #2 now, for anonymity).
I think she and I really went downhill after my Divorce. She got involved in a disagreement between a friend of mine and me.. which had absolutely nothing to do with her and became friendly with ex-friend; even going so far as believing her lies about me, while at the same time, getting upset with me for wanting to be Facebook Friends with a friend of hers.. which I respected and took back my request.
Sis #2 also spied on my last blog for 8 months then got upset when I figured it out… which is why I started this one. She gets upset and either tries to guilt me or gives me the silent treatment. She hasn’t talked to me except one word texts since screaming at me over the fact that I was getting the COVID Vaccines.
The latest is a text today regarding money left by my mom. Without going into detail, the text was snotty, so I called her and of course got her machine. I stood up for myself and now she is accusing me of getting out of control and needing psychological help! I am not allowed to have an opinion when it comes to her!
Suffice it to say, we are probably done. At least, it’s back to the silent treatment which I am used to, anyway. It’s a bit sad because it is family, but, you can’t pick them.
I am glad I believe my parents are resting until the Rapture or until God comes back. Because they would not be happy with what’s happening with our family, down here.
We all know the story of Frosty-The-Snowman made with a corncob pipe, a button nose and his eyes made out of coal. We saw how the Magician lost his hat and the children put it on Frostys head before he came to life. For a while, the adults didn’t believe them. Then he came back in Frosty Returns and helped a little girl to stay warm while at the North Pole and having Santa give her a ride home, only to melt before she leaves. It teaches us to hang on to the magic of Christmas even as adults. One thing I just learned, is that Frosty-The-Snowman movie or cartoon was released on my 5th Birthday! Maybe that’s why it’s one of my favorites.
As far as family, our family met every year at my parents for Christmas.. sometimes with a few friends. I won’t say we all got along because there was always some sort of drama, but we managed and had fun making memories. Since both parents are gone, we have all gone our separate ways and sometimes I miss even those forced family celebrations.
As far as family being related to Frosty; just go back to the drama, I just mentioned.
Finally! I am back to MetroPCS and may never leave them again. I could barely post and couldn’t open images or see any pictures. Even Facebook has been 6 days off.
Aside from stressing over that; I’ve been stressing over family..actually From not Over family, reading books, Watching movies and Cozi TV, helping my neighbor organize her Yard Sale and being really sick again with Migraines and Flu type symptoms.
I am going to take some time soon to try to catch up on what I’ve missed…which means all of you!