I talked to Carvana today who 3- wayed my finance company and will be picking up the car on Sunday. Despite the fact, it is the best decision; I have to admit the tears started and it will be hard to watch them drive her away.
This decision made me think a lot about where I am in life and how I got here. I have been lost and making a lot of bad decisions since my Divorce. Then, I was happy during my 2nd marriage, but his drug habit took precedence. I could go back over. and over on “If I hadnt..If I had never…If I had only..” ..which I thought about, this morning…but that helps nothing. The past is over and I need to keep moving forward.
The car is material. I still have my cats, food, health, and a roof over my head. This is a step in the right direction. I will get over this hurdle and things will get better.
This experience is also very humbling in that I didn’t want to date someone without a car. Now, look where I am?
But dating is the last thing on my mind. God’s got this and everything works in his time.